after practice
joyce came up to me after practice and said that we can be a good a friend as we used to be. only can be acquantance.
i told her, ' my last advice as a friend - if she wants to continue to allow her feelings to control her life, she would have no friends at the end. '
bianca cut thru our final conversation and said, '' joyce just wants to say that u guys can only be acquantance.
i said, 'okie!' *turned around and walked away*
bianca looked shocked and turned around to hug joyce.
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= 5/6 years of friendship ended because of mere feelings.
a pity and a relief =
thank god. this is the finale of the joyce saga. mixed feelings i would say. after so many years, [6 years to be exact], of caring for a person. i guess there isn't a need to do so liao. a little not used to - perhaps it's a little habbit to look out for joyce. BUT, i do sense of relief. she is no longer my problem / responsibility. *unless i'm the band leader, which i am not* it's up to bianca now!
feels so childish. it's like games that you play in primary school.
HUMP - i don't want to friend you anymore.
so silly!
well, i have to respect joyce's choice for not being friends with me. it's her right, her choice. perhaps it's the last thing i can give as a friend. no point holding on things that do not belong to me - friendship or a relationship. if joyce just wants to insist in her ways or her feelings about me or bad impression or think badly about me.. hey hey! it's not my problem. her choice.
5/6 years of friendship ended because of mere feelings.
a pity and a relief
anyway, glad that it's over.
i will be happier!
certainly, i have learn a lot of things. the past few days...
there are 2 things in life - 1. not within our abilities and, 2. within our abilities.
if we have done everything [in section 2] in the best of our abilities that we can do. that's enough. no point feeling sad able things that are not within our abilities or things that we cannot control.
Exams
it's like an exam. i have put in the best of my abilities. but if i didn't do well - hey i did my best. sad but i have done my best. But, it's also time to celebrate the exam papers that i did well.
same goes for joyce:
i have done my BEST to save the friendship. but it's not my choice that things have to end up this way. sad but i have done my best. It's, too, time to celebrate the many friends that i still have. people that stood by me. for all the friends that loved me and know who i am. Praise God for TRUE FRIENDS.
If i have not done anything to my best, may God be merciful in his judgment
If i have done my best, may God be my guide.
1 joyce reminds me of the many friends that i have
luke, sandra, calista, johnboy, julie, jacinta, jayawi carmen, ... the list goes on...
all the aunties and uncles in sfx, too!
and god
really with so many friends around. how to feel alone?
thank god for many true friends.
amen.
interesting question
joyce and I are no longer friends.
what about the friendship between bianca and i?